kinda weird that u can think about someone as much as u want and they have no idea
except I always tell her cuz i’m a needy/corny person and feel she must know that I am obsessed with her face XD
I’m tired of focusing on the bad things or what went wrong. I have a lot of milestones to be proud of and yet here I am stuck in my melancholy that I have nothing to show for my education and degree. Why does life have to be focused on social standing and career advancement? Why am I choosing to be lazy when it’s simply a matter of applying myself? I want to do all of these things, yet I am holding myself back…but for what? I am the biggest disappointment to myself.